Tuesday, January 15, 2008

all things go


1. MDG Summit for Young Filipino Leaders 2008
I must admit that even though I am currently the president of an organization that must have hands-on work on this new event, I have always placed the whole idea at the back of my head. It is easy to say that there are more important things to be stored in my racked-up brain than filling it with some activity that either gives stress to my whole being or pain in the most unexpected areas but since I think these words of “protest” would giveaway an instant reaction from hardcore workaholics, I would just say that I am very glad this special event has come to an end.

2. People
And yes, they suddenly appear out of nowhere and you'll just be surprised that the old times has just been overhauled and redecorated you hardly notice the original characteristics you once pointed out before so easily. But then again, after minutes of weird contemplation, great conception struck you hard you are finally aware of it again. And then inside your head, you think everything is fine. You feel happy.

The moment is steered by the peers surrounding you that negative energies seem to repel from your smile alone. All of a sudden, the time is up and no matter how you decide things by tossing a coin, on which face it would fall on top of your sweaty palms, head or tail, they have to pack up and leave and there’s nothing you can do.

3. Fleeting Moments of Joy and Guilt
Fleeting moments of joy and guilt are brief instances that occur in people’s lives in the most unexpected time; whether it is the moment when a writer finds his lost ballpen under a table, or a lady who finally discovers her favorite dress at the farthest corner of her wardrobe, or even when a child accidentally ruins his friend’s toy. All of these, good or bad, sum up to the final feeling that we have at the end of the day. Also, these moments is not only limited to material things, it could also be the loss of someone important or the desire to help a stranger. Basically, it is everything.

Most people have not felt their presence hovering above their heads or simply lingering around them because these transitory articles are much more felt to people who are keen (or perhaps have enough time to wonder) on the littlest things that occur in their day-to-day activities and, usually, when feelings towards something or someone are leaning on the extremes; extreme happiness or extreme loneliness. Their existence can also be clearly acknowledged if tension or pleasure is backed up with a state of confusion. And the key to eradicate this confusion is decision-making. This comes into play of which this part is, indeed, very crucial.

When time comes that we have to decide, when we are on the edge of things, we usually fall short on static ideas purportedly to be the right ones when it fact the solution is the other way around. We plummet on the other end of things. Our decisions are hazy. And as of this moment, things have never been this hazier. I am currently in a diaspora of disorientation and numbing pain.

As a matter of fact, that must be the reason why they are called “fleeting;” their role is to make us think then decide before everything is too late in the shortest time we could imagine. In order to compensate for their immediate short span of existence, we have to think fast. We have to make up our minds as soon as possible.
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2 comments:

anna katrina said...

nosebleed.

you're so verbose jord. as in.

may tag ingon ani pod ko ka-verbose. mag-study na lang usa kog dictionary da... hehe ^_^

Bullfrog said...

it's not in the verbosity one has to be proud of, it is in the context...

i just hope i made my point, but of course, it is impossible. i admit these rants from my consciousness are so vague.

it is sad. :'(